clarify a few things. for those who have read that thing - tcp's blog (yes, i call him the thing, he's not human), this is what i have to say, and this is the TRUTH, eat my words for that.
1. im the ONE who told him FIRST that we couldn't be friends anymore, but he was the one that kept calling me paranoid. now, he wanna care about his face saying that he was the one who said we couldn't be friends, bullshit.
2. im the ONE who called it off first, and the 2 months with him was just a f***in sympathy and empathy towards him. i finally realized that my feelings were over for him after our SPM examination.
3. HE was the ONE who started hating me in the first place for no reason. just because i couldn't stay back to accompany him, he started sending msgs like "i hate you" "i hate you". and honestly, i did stay back quite a few times, but coincidently, i had a project to do with my friends on that particular day, and i stayed back with him for like half and hour, and he started whining "you didn't keep your promise, i hate you." f*** you bastard, i had my reason and i was NOT wrong. and then there was another time when i stayed back, but he was very late, about half and hour late, and i got to go at 2pm, because my mum needed to visit my grandma in the hospital, and when i left, he said "i hate you" again. i had all the reasons, and he still said "i hate you".
4. HE blames me for making him feel lust, look at the guy, you all think he's so innocent and all, but NAH, NO, he's just a monster blaming the victim, when i heard that, i was like what the hell, why is it my fault. that bastard, i feel like killing him.
i admit that i hurt him, and he HURT me too, so we're equal on that matter.
i officially called it off during December. and all the shit he wrote in his blog, was practically, half of it is not true, you can't believe a guy when the relationship ends, because they care for their face too much, they can't say "the girl dumped me"
6 comments:
1. You're right. It was you who said we can't be friends first, and it was stupid me who thought that we still could be friends. It was only later that i realised we couldn't. By the way, I did not do that because of keeping my face, but I admit I did that because of my stupendity.
2. You're right again. You should have just streak break my heart right at that time and not leave anymore hope for me. You aren't so tough in doing these kind of "heart-breaking" decisions. But I admit it was my fault in the first place, that i should have realised it myself that the relationship was over. I apologized for dragging it further and troubling you.
3. I admit all that you said here. I was very immature and I sincerely apologize for giving you all the troubles. I know I was really dumb and annoying. I'm sorry.
4. I did say that I was in lust with you, but I never blamed you for it. I swear to god. Never in my life.
You're also right about my blog being very vague at explaining all this. Probably I wasn't clear of the whole situation and what I wronged you. I also have to clarify that when writing my blog, I have never ever thought of implying that I dumped u. To me, whoever dumps whoever isn't important. I admit you called it off first, and you dumped me.
I really hope that you can forgive me for my immaturity and stupendity that caused you a lot of troubles and hurt during the course of our relationship. I know I have wronged you a hell lot and it is not going to be easy for me to ask for your forgiveness, but I just want to say that I realised, admit and acknowledge all of my faults and I apologize for it. I seriously feel bad looking back at the stupid things I did to you. I hope that we can just forget about this as well as all the hurt and hate parts, and keep only the sweet times of our relationship in our memory. Wern Ching, I am sorry.
gg no re
i don't even want to remember the sweet memories between you and me, i can't even recall a damn one of it. you've just disappeared in my history of life, my book of life. you don't exist.
I finally understood why you hated me so much all these while. And I understand why you couldn't forgive me for my actions. Even I can't forgive myself. If you can't forgive me, then just forget about me and our relationship, pretend that it didn't happen at all, and just move on with our lives...For the last time, I'm sorry for everything I did.
"stupendity" is not a word, boy.
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