If Only

i think it's been a very long time since i've watched a classic love story which doesn't have the typical happy ending that most love stories do. or maybe i haven't really watched one before, as far i as i can remember. ahhh, there was one, a Korean movie, "The Last Present", that made my eyes welled up with tears, it was so freaking sad.

i downloaded a movie yesterday at night and managed to watch it that night, which ended me feeling all sad while lying on my bed and wondering about the movie, i know, sometimes i can really get engrossed with movies, especially sad unreasonable movies.

the movie is called "If Only" starring Jennifer Love Hewitt and Paul Nicholls


it revolves around Ian Wyndham (Paul Nicholls), who is some kind of British finance guy, and his girlfriend, Samantha Andrews (Jennifer Love Hewitt) who is an American musician. Ian is a power driven businessman who sometimes just neglects Sam,who loves him very much, even forgetting her graduation concert that was supposed to be on that night.

at the end of the day he finds himself in a cab where the taxi driver gives him some sound advice - show her you love her. Appreciate her. several things ensued before that, and at the end of the night, they got into a fight which left Sam saying, "i just feel like im a very high second priority for you......i can't do this anymore." she walked off and went into a cab, where it was the same taxi driver. he asked Ian, "are you coming in or not?", and he made the wrong choice for hesitating so long, that Sam slammed the door before him. after that, the cab stopped at a red light, and SLAMMED, the cab got knocked by a rushing car.


the look on Ian's face was really unforgettable, he looked so devastated, like all hopes were lost, and he rushed over to the cab, yelling, "No! Samantha! baby, baby, please don't". it was so awful. and yes, she died in the hospital, with Ian looking at her outside the emergency room. he was so grief-stricken, that tears kept coursing down his cheeks.

the next day, he awakens, only to find that Sam was still alive, and it was some kind of premonition or a nightmare he dreamed. and after a few events that took place that was exactly the same as the day before, he realises it was all going to happen again. he got the chance to relive that day again, and tries his best to avoid the same sequence of events from happening, so that he could change the events that would lead to the death of Sam.

but some things are just really meant and destined to happen, even though in different sequences, anything is possible. Ian realises that destined events go on occurring, no matter their way of occurrence and the order of events might change. so he decided to show his love to Sam by loving her as if there is no tomorrow. he brings her out of London, and Sam decided to let Ian show where he came from, and they shared a really sweet, intimate, and closeness moment even though for a few hours. Ian decided to surprise Sam by encouraging her to sing in front of the audience in her graduation concert, because she is afraid of singing in public, and she finally did, singing the song she wrote for Ian. later on, he gave her this really beautiful bracelet with a music note, a violin, a flower, a frying pan, the Eiffel tower, and finally a heart, Ian's heart, and he's giving it to her, it was totally sweet and touching, man, knowing that she...the accident...i think his heart was like totally breaking.

Ian died. he died because he chose to protect Sam in the car crash, they were both in the cab. the whole thing was really sad sad sad. gwad. okay, i have to admit that i cried watching...

what if both of them didn't get on the cab, would it still happen? i know, it's only a movie. anything is possible, it is just your choice that changes it, and that was what Ian did, he loved Sam very much that he didn't wanted to let her waste away, and sacrificed himself.

how often do i say or you say 'i love you'? do you really mean it when you say 'i love you'? do you really feel it? appreciate those who loves you and who you love, show them you really love them, because there is no way of knowing what would happen tomorrow.

what if you could have the chance to relive the day? what would you do?

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i really have praises for Jennifer Love Hewitt here, she is really a great actress, with a charming, most beautiful smile ever, and her lovely eyes. i thought she was really good at portraying Sam here, feeling hurt that her boyfriend can't really seem to take notice of things around here, and loving her boyfriend so much. i am always wondering why people should pay so much attention to her body, come on man, she has the brains, and the ability to act. and she can sing! fantastic man, her voice is lovable. lol. She is awesome in Ghost Whisperer as well. haha.


as for Paul Nicholls, i don't really know much about him, but i thought he was really good at expressing his emotions, especially when he was so devastated and horrified about Sam's death, he was all in tears. he has this really cute British accent. haha.

"I have to tell you this and you need to hear it. I loved you since I met you, but I wouldn’t allow myself to truly feel it until today. I was always thinking ahead, making decisions soaked with fear… Today, because of you… what I learned from you; every choice I made was different and my life has completely changed… and I’ve learned that if you do that, then you’re living your life fully… it doesn’t matter if you have five minutes or fifty years. Samantha if not for today, if not for you I would never have known love at all… So thank you for being the person who taught me to love… and to be love. “

Ian Wyndham from If Only