i have this quirk thingy but i can't explain about it right now

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1 more day im off to Beijing

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yeah, i know, i've repeated this for quite alot of times liao

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everybody HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

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the load of homework has come back to haunt me again, although classes are only for 2 weeks, but we have so much of homework to do everyday, it might become like a huge hill if i stop doing homework for 1 week. -_-" haha. still, everything must be accomplished quickly to complete the syllabus and i think it would be tough for the 3rd semester next year, learnings of the application and stuff, and we're even learning BioChemistry, that is so cool. hahahah.


and i watched Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium last Friday with my brother, the movie is really nice and decent and all, i just love it when the toys come to live, and Dustin Hoffman and Natalie Portman are really good actors reprising their roles. especially Dustin Hoffman who acts as Mr Magorium, was really eccentric and weird, but still awesome and funny with his werid bushy eyebrows and shocking hair. haha. while Natalie Portman as Molly Mahoney, a 23 year old girl who is not really that confident in herself and doesn't believe that she has that magic touch and sparkle in her. it was like really touching and all.


the movie was quite sad actually, as Mr Magorium died, yes, he died, he's already 243 years old, and then the toyshop started turning black, and gloomy and liveless. and it's about like Mahoney searching for that magical thing inside her that would cure the magical toys to come back to live. for that confidence inside her to burst out. anyway, the last part was awesome, she was like conjuring an orchestra or something. damn cool.

this part was damn cute, all the toys were hugging him

and i can't wait to get to Beijing!!! 2 days more 2 days more!! Yahoooooooo =P

hiya

AS examinations are over and classes had resumed last Thursday, but i still feel in a don't-want-to-study mode, although i know i have to. i can't afford being lazy anymore. haha. still i have 1 month of holiday, must buck up on everything.

the whole moving house thing has finally settled down. what i feel about the house? comfortable, and my room seems more spacious then before. our old house had been rented out. and well, i still feel lazy walking around in my new house, especially when the walkway from the bedrooms to downstairs, not that very big or what, but still much bigger and longer than the old house, see, im that lazy. first week, i couldn't really sleep, back pain and stuff, feel like an old lady, haha, thats cuz i was going to get sick in the middle of exam. sigh. now, im in the pink of health already! =P

another year has gone and passed, and i still haven't figured out what degree would i take later. although there are a few universities in mind, and i can't afford to go overseas, unless a miracle happens, and i get a scholarship. that would be so woopie-doodlee-doo, so maybe IMU, Monash etc etc. sigh. and they increased the doctor's housemanship to 2 years, don't know what the hell are they thinking about, it would be like TEN 10 years to finish everything, i'd become like 30 years old already. and i don't really think that increasing that housemanship years would improve the quality of doctors produced, there are other factors like having good senior doctor mentors or those doctors that really deserve to be doctors. so maybe im thinking of letting that go, and go into research like Biomedical Science or Biotechnology or Pharmacy, or maybe Dentistry, or Nutrition and Dietetics. i still don't know yet, blah.

Pharmacy would be quite bland, everyday you do the same thing, but research would be cool, there would be like interesting foundings and stuff. and besides, i really like Biology, even more than Chemistry, and it's stronger than Chemistry, but i still can't make up my mind though.

for the good stuff, im going to Beijing next Thursday!! yay, finally a holiday trip, but that means i'll be skipping college for 2 days, which i really don't want to, haha. teacher can teach lotsa things in 2 days, and id be missing my good friend's birthday, sigh. but i can't wait to go to the Great Wall of China, and i hope it would be snowing, although i experienced it once when i was in US, but still it would be damn cool. haha. but i have this stomach discomfort thingy everytime i sit airplane, lol, maybe its a mental effect or something, lol.

she said to me,

"in this 8 days, you better make up for it oh..."

i just laughed. haha. =P

i still feel abit the groggy, this sucks

woke up in the morning, planned to wake up at 8a.m. but instead i woke up at 9a.m. thought i had recover yesterday. after going to the doctor last friday, found out i had slight fever.

i think i still have fever now and had Biology paper 2 exam at 1.30p.m. with my head feeling groggy, but this did not obstruct me from answering all the questions! bwahaahahahhaha. i really did my best and i thought the paper was okay. but my friends said it was hard, argghh, i really don't know who to believe. -_-"

now waiting for my mum to fetch me back home

bye bye guys and good luck to whoever that has exams on =)

hi guys

im down with a sorethroat and one big stupid ulcer near my tooth, so torturing

would be getting my phone line in 2 months time

sigh

in the mean time would update through the college's computer

sigh

2 more papers left

but i feel so dead already

stupid me

better get studying

sigh

i still feel like such a stupid ass for making dumb and stupid and humiliating mistakes for my Biology paper. sigh. sigh. sigh. thats why i finally decided to make new resolutions for what i am going to do during my 1 month holiday which is after my exam of course. and this time, i bukan cakap kosong sahaja, must do, must do, and achieve and kick ass when college reopens, especially the subject i own most. bwaahahahaha.

therefore, i must look back and revise back at my A2 syllabus, and i promise not to slack this time. i must do it, although i possess a half discipline attitude. laziness is just my biggest weakness. i won't do any last minute work anymore, i won't i won't. haha. and must think deeply which course to take for my degree, so frustrating -lah. -_-"

everything in my old house is such a mess right now, although all the stuff are in boxes, and half of my clothes are in the new house, but half of it here in the luggage. moving house is just so mafan and tiring. haiyo. and besides, don't know when i can get the internet connection, gwad, ask me how to live lidat. lol. i'll die one day without using the computer. -_-" hahahaa. but maybe it's a good thing though, i get to concentrate fully for my Biology and Chemistry paper next next week. my last two papers. bwahahaha.

kk. got to go for now. =)

eff eff eff, i did 2 careless mistakes in my Biology paper 1, this sucks, why am i such a babi. and i thought that this paper was much harder than the other past year papers i've done before. sigh. nevermind, i would still have the chance to compensate, still got Biology paper 2, and i swear im going to own that, although the paper would be hard too. sigh. tak apa, got one week to study and focus. i sure can manage. =)

now, i don't have a tv at my present house as they moved the tv to the new house. sigh. boredness. might as well go pack up my things. haha. kk. that's all for now. =)

back back back

the advantages of moving into a new house are
1. i get a new bed.
2. i get a new mattress.
3. i get new closets.
4. i get new room colour.
5. i get new curtain.
6. i get new bed sheets.
7. i get new pillow.
8. i get new toilet, bigger samo.

the only thing i might not be changing is my study table, which is a good thing. haha. yea, so moving next week while my exams are still on. haha. hope i can adapt to the new environment and the new house. not sure whether i would miss my present house. but one thing for sure, better pray that i can go online, if not i sure bored to death. sigh.

the main important thing is the COMPUTER!!! hahahhaa. =) of course i must study, but i got like 1 week sorta "holiday" before my last two papers which are Biology 2 and Chemistry 1. after exams, need to resume normal college class till December 7th, that is the end of 2nd semester!! haha. part of it quite best, part of it, 1 month holiday is seriously not good for me, but somehow i can't enjoy -lah, need to brush up on my A2 syllabus. must get best best result. sigh. then maybe pick up my driving skills *gulp* =P

this is such a crap post.

currently addicted to Lost by Michael Buble

"Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear to fall
I said, babe, you're not lost"

okay, goodbye for now. =) for those having final exams, all the best and gambateh. =)

back for something

~ BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHA ~

Happy Halloween !!

haha. i still remember when i was at the US, and it was Halloween time, and i dressed up in a pumpkin outfit. and they had this basement party, but i think it was quite scary, so well, i did not dare to go. lol. don't laugh la okay, i was only 3, 4 years old lidat, i think, can't really remember. =)

i still have FOUR more papers to go. sigh sigh sigh. haha. but i have confidence -lah. =) Biology practical was quite okay, the experiment was okay, except that there was this problem with the Bunsen burner, the fire cannot reach the base of the beaker, haiyo. so stupid. but still managed to get the result. phew. *wipes sweat* =) but some of the questions were weird. nevermind. and again, i did a stupid careless mistake. sigh, why i tend to screw up a little bit sometimes. -_-"

Mathematics 6 Statistics paper was okay too, except the cumulative frequency curve was abit the weird. lol. but it was okay. haha. okay, better study my Biology and read, do some stuff for my MUET test. am crazy downloading albums while im supposed to be studying. haha.

that's all for now. =) bye peeps.

okay okay

okay kay peeps. i will update -lah. -_-" but i just have nothing to write. sigh.

had my Chemistry Paper 2 (structure) exam just now.
i totally didn't expect the bond bond thing to come out. so i had just to use my brain really hard to remember. but i think maybe that question was easy to some people who had studied it. sigh. overall, the paper was OKAY, i guess. not too hard but also not too easy. still the same standard like the other Chemistry past year papers. and samo doing halfway today, MPH and the gallery went lights out. Taylor's always seem to have electricity problems. didn't pay bill -kah. hahahaha. =P

but i did my best. i realise i would perform better when not under the stress condition. just take it easy and relax. but because of this, my mum is so worried why i seem so relax every time got this big FINAL exam, for example like SPM, and now this. well, i can't help it. i do indeed feel relaxed. -_-". haha.

and then im having pimples coming out at my face. not alot -lah, but still, why can't it go away.

it always seems to come when
1. i have exams.
2. maybe i had to many chocolaty stuff like chocolates, chocolate chip cookies.
3. maybe i didn't drink enough water.
4. maybe i ate junk food.

there would be no time for water during exam. everything is just ngam ngam hor. do finish. check finish. then pens down. except Maths paper 1 -lah. haha. =P

i find that Facebook is quite addictive. -_-".

okay for now i need to go have war with Biology and Statistics. hehe. having Biology practical exam next Tuesday and Statistics on Wednesday. i really must do my very best in Biology, provided if my stupid brain can function properly on that day. sigh. wish me luck. haha.

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btw, im moving to somewhere early November. will keep ya updated then. =)

punched and punched again

i was kicked, punched, kicked, punched by that stupid Chemistry Practical Exam paper 31 yesterday, Wednesday, 11.30 a.m.

first looking at the 1st question, it seemed okay. i can do it. Just mix the FA1 reagent, FA2 reagent and distilled water using two burettes and one measuring cylinder. and just change the concentration of FA1. (why the heck is it like Biology) ...

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i screwed the damn graph. i hope got at least one mark for the labelled x and y axis. sigh.
yea yea laugh at me. sigh.

and we did the experiment for like 7 times

then the 2nd question, qualitative question, the tests for anions and cations

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what the hell

started to feel panic but told myself to calm down

i can't really get the anion answer as both sulphate and sulphite ion did not dissolve in the stupid sulphuric acid. well. at first it seemed like sulphite dissolved, so, wrote the answer happily and stuff. then see see for a while, why the hell got some white ppt inside. blah. nevermind. at least the answer is correct while discussing with friends after the exam. *wipes sweat*

then that nitrite ion. i was supposed to see pale brown gas but damn the gas was so freaking pale. nevermind. at least i saw the effervescence.

then the last question

WTH

grabs head and pulls hair out

all together we need to test for FOUR reagents FA3, FA4, FA5 and FA6

and damn lotsa other reagents we need to mix with

sodium hydroxide la...
then heat la...
then add ammonia...
then add sulphuric acid
then add sodium sulphite la...
then add hydrochloric acid...

bla bla bla

got so many freaking tests to do

WHAT? does Cambridge thinks we have four hands or something?!? totally crazy

but luckily i still got the correct answers

phew
i came back home all exhausted and tired and back pain and headache
thank you

Mathematics paper 1 today was quite easy. hehe. =)

- just a brief update -

went out with Shan Miao and Yee Hong to Sunway Pyramid last Saturday. Shan Miao was sooo good to fetch both of us to Pyramid, *ahem* her driving not that bad -leh, but quite scary also. Nearly knocked into a car while turning into the big road. *oops* haha. and then there was this lorry coming, and she still went and turned into the big road.

"wah, you very scary -leh" said Yee Hong.
"heeheeheehee" i laughed. =P

had a really good time and Resident Evil 3: Extinction was good. there were like unexpectable shocks here and there. haha. yes, i admit that i jump at big noises when the whole scenario was as quiet as a mouse. haha. =P but the zombies in the movie were all kinda dried up. not as much blood and blood and gore in 28 Weeks Later. haha.

then we went to somewhere in Mentari to eat steamboat *buffet steamboat* at Yuan Restaurant *can't remember the name*. RM20 per person. seafood. normal toufu stuff. fish ball stuff. vegetables. meehoon. ice cream. yeah, there was this honey chicken or something, at i think they have it like every half an hour or something, everybody would rush to get that honey chicken like some uncivilized hooligans. typical Malaysians i might call them. i would never do that kind of stuff, rushing, to just get that chicken?!? *smacks forehead* my mum also know how to cook -lah, what so great. -_-".

overall, it was really really a fun day. haha. hope to meet up again one fine day. =)

would be having my AS examination starting from next Tuesday, starting off with Chemistry practical exam. so, there would be no update for maybe a month. haha. but remember to come by after November 21st for i would have alot of things to rant about by then. heehee. =P

bye bye and take care.

=)

this week

i had a swollen big toe. it became so painful on Monday midnight that i slept at 4 something a.m. and went to college at 7.30 a.m. later, walking like a tempang person. blah. i couldn't walk properly for about 2 days.


my spectacles went "haywire".

i disappointed my teacher. sigh. bad drop. =(

for some positive stuff

i managed to do some asskicking in class. YES! i will not let my B disrupt my emotions and likings for the subject.

i managed to do some productive studying. AS exams starting on October 16. *gulp*

YES! looking forward to meeting Shan Miao and Yee Hong this Saturday! Yay! =)

i must be more hardworking than ever. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Adeline!!! =)

may all your wishes in your wish list come true. heehee. =) enjoy everyday of your life.

everything in one

sobbing out loud "nobody is visiting my blog anymore!!" *sobs sobs*

i know. everybody is busy huh. or is the power of "don't feel like blogging anymore" that made everybody to stop visiting my blog anymore? *sighing out loud*

i am so addicted to Ghost Whisperer right now i can't wait to get the DVD when college reopens. which means buying the DVDs for season 1 and season 2 would burn two holes in my wallet *sizzle sizzle*. it's worth it anyway. Does anybody know where could i get cheap pirated DVD for English TV series? *wonder wonder*

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Oh Yes i got A for Mathematics!
Oh Yes i got A for Chemistry!
Oh No this is the FIRST time ever i got B for Biology!
Oh No i don't want to talk about Thinking Skills!

im feeling so guilty over getting a B for Biology. i did study. i did. and i promised myself that i would not slack. but it all went wrong during exam. how can i be so stupid. always had this high confidence in Biology suddenly it just pulled me down. ARGH! this completely sucks. now i must work 2 times harder for every subject and score very good A's.

and my lecturer somemore commented "a very able student with great potential", made me feel very very guilty. did she actually gave the wrong comment or what huh. sigh. i just let myself down and whoever that had high hopes on me. sigh.

nevermind. i told my parents today that i would definitely get an A for Biology and it will be a good A. I WILL. I WILL.

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"One of the main reasons why you get moody and discouraged and have low self-esteem is that you are constantly comparing yourself with others. THIS IS A BIG MISTAKE. The most IMPORTANT thing is to get into competition with yourself."

this is what all the hypocrites and kiasus can't understand. especially those kiasus that just seep into their personality and make them unlikable. blah.

"Don't compare yourself with anyone else. Measure yourself on what you have done, what you are doing and what you can do. You are in a race with yourself and your own possibilities."

so don't get upset over others. be yourself and feel yourself. feel good. =)

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i am very sure that all Malaysians do feel the rage upon what happened to Nurin Jazlin, the poor little girl who got kidnapped, tortured, sexual abused and killed. the stupid farker who did this terrible thing must be *in my opinion* KILLED. this bugger had no no no NO moral conscience at all. tidak berhati perut. tidak berperikemanusiaan. acted like an animal, even worse than an animal. indeed, that whoever must be a maniac. blah. the police better capture that whoever quick before somebody gets hurt again.

"what is the world turning into? sigh..."

yesterday night...

.something stupid and horrible happened.

as i was using my right hand to brush my teeth with the toothbrush, i held out my left hand to grab the toilet roll which was situated at the small top attached to the toilet bowl. *god knows why did i grab the toilet roll.* and i was secretly thinking 'please don't drop inside the toilet bowl'. but actually i did not manage to grab the toilet roll, but accidentally pushed *a slight soft push okay* the toilet roll and it FELL into the toilet bowl.

"'PLOOP', toilet roll fell into the toilet bowl"

and it was 45 degree submerged inside the water inside the toilet bowl. luckily nobody did some small or big business in it and it was just PURE water. *phew* and i had to take it out again and left the toilet roll to dry. it's still abit wet and spongy and puffy in the afternoon. LOL.

bad drawing but im sure you guys could figure it out huh. LOL.

see. holidays is so boring till im talking about what happened while i was brushing my teeth. -_-"

running screaming swearing

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Thinking Skills - has some ability in this subject but needs to work harder.
Mathematics - wrote a good exam.
Chemistry - good work.
Biology - a very able student with great potential.

my thoughts - im such a useless slacker.

P.S. would be back for my rantings soon. haha.

i have to agree with Sara and Adeline. kinda losing the urge and feel to blog already. sigh. maybe simply because there's nothing inspiring that can infiltrate my mind now.

that's all. goodbye for now. LOL.

100th post

.This is my hundredth 100th post.

here are some silly and free pictures for you guys to boo or smile at. haha. XD

=) you might just smile in between =)

that is not my pair of legs =P

HAVE A NICE DAY!

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"Everyday, of our lives,
wanna find you there,
wanna hold on tight.
Gonna run,
while we're young,
and keep the faith."
- Everyday - Zac Efron n Vanessa Hudgens - High School Musical 2 OST -

stuff like this and that

i've been putting away my personal problems from this blog for quite some time and i wonder why while im supposed to express all my bloody mixed-up feelings in this blog to lighten a part of me everyday. sigh.

*please wait a moment while i fry an egg*

1. time to think about what am i going to study later on in university for my future.
2. which university to apply for.
3. worry about my AS trial results.
4. worry about my upcoming real AS examination.
5. worry about my friendship with my best friend.
6. looking forward to have an "educational vacation" during the holidays.

i fought and argued with my best friend during my trial examination. mainly my mind was focusing for the exams and the problem did not really exist in my brain, which you guys might think me cruel, but the exams was my first priority. and now she's having exams and she probably won't be bothered by it too.

literally i think her problem is not contributing at all to this friendship. all the while i was the one trying to keep in touch with her, while she would not bother to reply my sms all the time. it just makes me wonder how much she really wants to keep this friendship. she can't come online i understand but smsing?? she told me she was too lazy and it was boring. wth. she even told me off to find another new best friend, obviously her motive was so that i would not bother and miss her so much. SERIOUSLY, i was VERY PISSED by her words. how could she even teach me to find a new best friend.

i feel like swearing now. all my emotions are boiling again. im not a person who would easily open my heart to others and blab all my problems and show my true colours to other people. and i know how innocent she is to always believe and get influenced by others so easily that she would get conned and taken advantage of, she might not even speak out about it. well, for god's sake, im NOT like that. and she's living in a place so messy and so kelam kabut, she might just become a person i do not recognize. sometimes i just worry for her that she would not be the angel that she used to be. and maybe she even became quite self-conscious. gosh. i don't know.

maybe it is my problem? maybe i've been expecting too much? but all the while i've been trying so hard to compromise and believe me, patience and tolerance is sometimes really not one of my virtues. and all she do is complain and whine there. im really fed up with her. i seriously feel like giving up already. but deep inside my heart, i do not want to lose her as my best friend.

the resolving power

FOR this 2-week holiday, i would seriously do some self-reflecting and improve on my diligence and conscientiousness.

YOU, L W C, cannot afford to be lazy anymore ohkay. your biggest and humongous enemy is LAZINESS and you need to change it quick before you become a heap of crap. which i don't think you would desire to. hmph. bleuk.

therefore my holiday resolution is to

CHARGE at Biology - Chemistry - Mathematics and Thinking Skills.

and reCHARGE again at Biology - Chemistry - Mathematics and Thinking Skills till my real AS examination creeps up which would be starting at October the 17th or maybe even as early as October the 9th for my practical exams.

one word - !!KAMBATEH!!

of course for all my friends out there studying too, whether no exam or got exam, we SAMA-SAMA berusaha -lah. hehe. =)

disaster trials

:: my trials are over :: !!YES!!

as usual. i can't live without .ranting. .complaining. .feeling remorse. regretfulness. of my exam papers. so, here it goes peeps. *sigh*

let me start with

.Mathematics.

Paper 1
i kinda thought that this paper was tough. it's like Add Maths SPM. blearghhh. even harder. and the damn paper was in the afternoon, after my depressing Biology exam. my head was kinda spinning here and there. information running here and there but little neurons attached and lighted. LOL. but i still can scrap through -lah, i hope. LOL.

Paper 6
Paper 6 is Statistics. yeah. normal, binomial distribution, probability. but this paper was da BomB. hehe. it was very manageable. and surprisingly with my low IQ, i could do all the questions, except that 2 marks questions. =.=". LOL.

please let me get an A in Maths. please.

.Chemistry.

Paper 1
woah, this paper was damn freaking hard, exactly same standard as Cambridge past year papers. obviously because most of the questions came from there, the lecturers just cut, copy and paste. LOL. and luckily the day before, i did all the multiple choice questions past year papers. so it really saved me. yeah. hehe. =P

Paper 2
surprisingly i thought this paper was moderate, at the borderline of easy and moderate. could do all the questions except 1 or 2. LOL. confidence was just at that ngam ngam level which i never had before for Chemistry. lol.

Paper 3
Paper 3 is practical exam. yes, hands-on experiment. it was overall okay. but kinda screwed up the calculating part. wth. lol.

i hope to get an A for Chemistry.

.Biology.

Paper 1
got the high level confidence to score full marks for this paper. *wink wink* but nah, it won't happen. -_-"

Paper 2
i totally screwed this paper. i don't know what the hell was going through in my head, my high level confidence for Biology suddenly dropped to zero level, maybe even going to negative. .OMGWAD I HATE MYSELF. looking at the questions, my brain just stopped dead and no information was coming through my mind. to seriously think back the paper, it was okay and maybe even easy for me. but damn it. something terribly wrong happened to my brain. shucks. i feel so down down down. but i can't do anything now. just feeling remorse and rebellious.

Paper 3
this paper was another disaster. the experiment part was totally not what i expected. lost 9 marks!!! blah. the rest of the paper was ok.


no hope in getting an A in Biology. i failed myself. =(

.Thinking Skills.

one word .screwed.

Paper 1
problem solving questions was ok. but critical thinking skills was disastrous.

Paper 2
no need to say. i have drilled out my brain. shucks.


please i don't want to fail. blah.

Conclusion is : i am stupid. =(

My trials are starting tomorrow. sorry for not updating before and sorry again for i will not be updating for the next 2 weeks. heehee.

wish me luck! XD

im bored of studying

im not that kind of hardworking or diligent or conscientious person who can focus and concentrate and study the whole freaking day.

im feeling pretty emo nowadays. my mood might have been disrupted and influenced by somebody.

enough said. bye bye.

my family lost someone today - 21.08.2007

this particular post is specially dedicated to my uncle who passed away this morning peacefully.

let me or we have a minute of silence

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but i am sure that you are very happy with the Lord/God right now in Heaven, although we here, at earth, would miss you dearly, dear uncle.

i can't string my words together to describe you

but

in my memory

you are a great uncle

and i'm sorry i could not pay my last respect to you

but you would always remain a perfect image in my memory forever

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goodbye my uncle

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exam

"so, how was your exam?" mum asked.

"erm, i think can -kua, don't know -lah..." i said.

"what dunno? means can do or cannot do?" mum said.

"erm, erm, erm, can -lah i think, aiyah." i replied.

"so, wanna continue diploma anot?" mum asked.

"har? don't kacau me..." i replied.

"why? continue diploma -lah, next time can teach." mum said.

*puts up the no-no hand*

"why not? can earn side income..." mum replied.

*at the split of the moment i thought - wah, side income!! $$*

"no no no..." i insisted while thinking i cannot teach children *pening* XD

continuing diploma would be a crazy thing to do, im not saying those who did or doing diploma crazy, but imagine having to memorize about 10 pages for every song, which means approximately 30 pages and plus all the squeezed little notes, OMG, i can't do it. sigh. it's very time and energy consuming. sigh. im feeling cold now. -_-"

now, i have to study for my Trial exams. sigh. exam exam exam. *pening*

"pray that a miracle would happen or God just loves him too much, granting him a place in Heaven, no more sufferings and pain."

crapz

i've been wondering lately, everybody is well, interconnected to each other, we have a role to play in one's life, our lives, and other people's lives, no matter big - tiny - small - humongous.

"it's just the heart that matters."

1. your heart to sincerely help your parents.
2. your heart to reach out to your friends who are in need.
3. your heart to just smile and say "hello" to friends you meet everyday.
4. your heart to take the first step to know a stranger in school/college or wherever.
5. your heart to help a total stranger that might just seem lost on the streets.
6. your heart to help out elderly people on the roads.
7. your heart to know a friend even more deeply than you have ever known him/her.
8. your heart to care about everybody.
and of course your heart to LOVE everybody.

sigh. i'm feeling way bored that i'm writing total crap here. sorry guys.

i'm so sleep deprived nowadays, i can't seem to open my eyes at 6.30 a.m. in the morning to get ready to go to college. but somehow, i feel motivated, as if pushed by an invisible force that gets me all energised that i'm looking forward to college everyday, weird huh.

"hmm, just wanna ask, do u find any difference in me when i'm in msn and in class??" i asked.

"haha"

"so very much.."

"serious huh" i said.

"like how??" i asked.

"ur much more outspoken here..."

yeah, thats me.

as Irene described my blog in her blog - wern ching - and you think you know her.

the more you get to know me, the more you would know how much i can talk and blab and talk and blab. well, mostly crap stuff basically. and you cannot imagine the crazy stuff i would do to get the things i dream of and desire, or maybe just doing crazy stuff for fun. but all i know is, i reach my heart out towards everything i do, be honest and straightforward, and do it the fun way, the feedback can sometimes be quite rewarding.

"people are just too FAKE nowadays, that sometimes you don't feel the fun chatting with these type of people."

enough of crap. continue later. =P

randomness

At Web's End

Where does the Internet end? At lots of sites, actually. The whole idea of a "final page" of the Internet has caught many people's imagination, and several sites have been erected claiming to represent "the End of The Internet". One of the funniest is the zany display at http://www.romlist.com/end, where you'll see a message announcing that you have "now seen everything there is to see in the future world" and are encouraged to venture out and "feel the awesome feeling of not being connected"...

Source taken from The Star InTech, Tuesday, 7 August 2007.

Interested? just CLICK http://www.romlist.com/end, it might give you a chuckle. haha. =P

i don't see any sharp edges @_@

my life has been getting pretty hyped up and hectic everyday. so many to be done, but so little time. sigh.

"time and tide 'really' waits for no man"

i am seriously sleep deprived. the reason why i feel so tired everyday, once my head touches my pillow, whoala, im in dreamland, no more tossing and turning. maybe it's quite a good thing though. what to do, i neeeeeeeed to grab more TIME. all i need is TIME. Theory exam in 1 week time. Trials in 3 weeks time. enough said. all i need to do is study hard, strive through, and then the results would be really satisfying. i hope i can make it. i must make it. I MUST!! *roar* and this time, i must really learn my lesson from my past experiences, no more studying last minute, and strive for the best. to realise our dreams, it ain't that easy after all. sigh. all i need is determination and erase away all the laziness. i believe i can do it. all would be well in the end. therefore, i'd probably won't be really updating my blog, maybe until 7th September? haha. but i'd probably can't stand the temptation of coming online checking updates about you guys and everybody. lol.

im just plain bored right now, any exciting stuff? Alvin got national service -kah?

peace out =)

no update

"im feeling way bored right now. but i won't have an update."

nothing much has happened to me this August. all i do everyday is listen to Maroon 5's It Won't Be Soon Before Long and Kelly Clarkson's My December while drilling my head with Chemistry. i've become so damn freaking busy this 2nd semester, i find it way more MORE hectic than the 1st semester, gwad. assignments, projects, past-year papers, homework, study, tests, quizzes, everything comes in the 2nd semester package. while revising topics for my AS examination i still need to study for my A2 syllabus. sigh.

having my Chemistry practical exam on 23rd August, man, i hope i can survive my practical exam, starting AS trials on 29th August and it ends at 7th September. must start filling, digesting, feeding my brain already. anyway, study hard and play hard. =)

Maroon 5 :: Wake Up Call

Artist: Maroon 5
Song: Wake Up Call
Album: It Won't Be Soon Before Long

I didn't hear what you were saying.
I live on raw emotion baby
I answer questions never maybe
And I'm not kind if you betray me.
So who the hell are you to say we
Never would have made it babe.

If you needed love
Well then ask for love
Could have given love
Now I’m taking love
And it’s not my fault
Cause you both deserve
What is coming now
So don’t say a word

Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed
Don't you care about me anymore?
Don’t you care about me? I don't think so.
Six foot tall
Came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead
He won't come around here anymore
Come around here? I don't think so.

Would have bled to make you happy
You didn't need to treat me that way
And now you beat me at my own game
And now I find you sleeping soundly
And your lovers screaming loudly
Hear a sound and hit the ground

If you needed love
Well then ask for love
Could have given love
Now I’m taking love
And it’s not my fault
Cause you both deserve
What’s coming now
So don’t say a word

Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed
Don't you care about me anymore?
Don’t you care about me? I don't think so.
Six foot tall
Came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead
He won't come around here anymore
Come around here?
I don’t feel so bad, I don’t feel so bad, I don’t feel so bad

I'm so sorry darling
Did I do the wrong thing?
Oh, what was I thinking?
Is his heart still beating?

Woah oh ohh

Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed
Don't you care about me anymore?
Don’t you care about me? I don't think so.
Six foot tall
Came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead
He won't come around here anymore
Come around here anymore? I don’t feel so bad

Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed
Don’t you care about me anymore?
Don’t you care about me? I don’t think so.
Six foot tall
Came without a warning so I had to shoot him dead
He won’t come around here anymore
No, he won’t come around here. I don’t feel so bad

I don’t feel so bad (Wake up call)
I don’t feel so bad (Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed)
I don’t feel so bad (Don’t you care about me anymore?)
Care about me? I don’t feel so bad.
Wake up call
Caught you in the morning with another one in my bed
Don't you care about me anymore?

jumping away with the rhythm

can't seem to think of anything to amuse people visiting my blog nowadays, creative -ness seems creeping away from me OR maybe i don't have the tinge of creativeness anymore. shucks. been feeling a little bit lost lately, actually i've been pondering about my future, it seems such a tough job having to decide on your future at the age of 18. lol. reaching adulthood has ALOT of price to pay, weighing all sorts of responsibilities on your shoulders, it's starting to push me down, making me "slouch". haha. XD.

"But NO! i would not be deterred, i would not be defeated, even though the road laid in front of me is tough, i'm confident that i could strive through, the same goes to everybody too, all we need is to put lotsa effort, and then success would come our way." *hah* sweet smelling success *dreaming*

anyway, my class sold waffles and root beer floats during the charity carnival yesterday, it was pretty fun handling the root beer floats, and business was really good for both, despite our nonstrategic booth that was placed right in front of the cafeteria. lol. i think we got approximately RM300 something for the sales of root beer, that means we sold about 100 something cups of root beer. haha. and the same goes for the waffles too, but we haven't minus the commission we're supposed to give the person who came to make the waffles. it was all for CHARITY, yay! =) *cheers*

*edited*
We collected a total of about RM300 something. =)

let me recommend TWO albums that im pretty hooked up with. XD

Maroon 5 -- It Won't Be Soon Before Long


have to admit that this album is really really good, i thought it would be a normal pop album, but WAO! it really amazed me. the tracks inside are very pop with an essence of rock, compiled with some soothing soft nice songs, along with very "dancy" tracks, that makes you feel hyped up, making you feel like dancing and jumping along to the tunes. It is terribly luring me to get the original album. seems like i have to burn a hole again in my wallet. XD
Recommended tracks would be of course the hit single Makes Me Wonder, Little Of Your Time, Wake Up Call, Won't Go Home Without You, Goodnight Goodnight, Back At Your Door, in fact all of the tracks are really worth listening. and btw Adam Levine and his voice is way way hot plus sexy, darn unique voice. *bwahahaah* XD

Kelly Clarkson -- My December


I have to say that this album really rocks, but Kelly Clarkson needs to put more rock inside, to ngam ngam have that really strong rock pop album. but what can i say, this is solely HER album, where she wrote/co-wrote all of the songs inside, so, its practically intimate and personal, which makes this album rock, and Kelly really likes to get intimate with her fans, and we fans, ok, her fans would seriously enjoy this album, although some might prefer her sophomore album Breakaway. this album is way darker, and way sadder, but hey, it's a fresh new thing ain't it. although some songs may not be that radio-friendly, but the songs inside are pretty fantastic. Recommended tracks would be of course Never Again, good song for your cheating or whatever boyfriend, Haunted, Judas, Sober, Be Still, Maybe, Can I Have A Kiss and of course the "poppy" How I Feel. Sober, Be Still, Maybe would be those really soothing songs with really really good lyrics. amazing. lol. and her vocals are still as powerful as ever, might be even more powerful than in Breakaway.

opinions are based on my personal thinking, comments are allowed, no matter good or bad. haha. XD

thank you. =)

im tagged again about the fourth/fifth time

1. What was the last thing you did that you pleased your parents?
maybe i said i would do well in my next exam? *scratches head*

2. Do you keep long nails?
nope, because i need to play the piano.

3. What makes you start blogging?
out of craziness.

4. Blog hopping is good or bad?
good thing, as long as you don't hop to a gay/lesbian/sex blog. =P

5. How long you take to bath?
approximately 10 minutes.

6. Whose blog you viewed before doing this tag?
christine tan's blog, d'oh, because she tagged me. =P

7. What motivates you to go out for the outdoors the most?
boredness at home.

8. How long is your average SMS length?
about 2 - 3 messages, depends on the person i am smsing.

9. What you use your email for?
sending files for project and stuff. nah, i don't send chain emails. lol.

10. What is your favourite snack?
chocolates!! and maybe abit the potato chips. lol.

11. What movie that you think that is worth for your money this year?
erm. i don't know. maybe transformers, but heck, i haven't watch it yet. =P but since everybody say so chun blah blah blah. XD

12. What would you look for when you wake up early in the morning?
the clock, to see whether i can still laze around on my bed. =P

i tag no one, the tag ends here. just want to say,

"bloggers rule!!"

nothing -ness

Learning Hokkien is as easy as ABC
Children is kina kia
Boy is da boh kia
Girl is zha boh kia
Bird is chiao kia
Korean car is Kia
Give birth is seh kia
Furniture is Ikia
Police is mata kia
Small house is chu kia
Handphone is Nokia
I am Hokkien kia
Malay is huan kia
Hindu is keh leng kia
Kuai lou (mat salleh) is angmoh kia
Chinese is deng lang kia
Japanese is jit pun kia
Bad guy is pai kia
Good guy is ho kia
Gangster is sam seng kia
Person who read this is gong kia
If you laugh, you are also siao kia =P

shopping mission =P

women are catogerised as a hazardous material XD

bad santa *haha*

beware, i'll shoot your arse. =P

did this post again simply because i have nothing to do. hope you guys made a good laugh out of it. XD

ish, better go read my biology liao, blah, test next tuesday. =( and our lecturer won't tell us when would she be giving another test/quiz starting from August, aiyo, die liao.

untitled

i can't think of anything interesting to post in my blog anymore, maybe because i had been doing some serious thinking about my future. it seems like the days go by faster and faster, and im still struggling with my inner self, feeling really vague and ambiguous about my future, making me numb, and feeling sad, because i might not be able to pursue what i had been aiming for all my 18 years.

i seriously admit that i had not put enough effort before this to get what i want, and im really feeling remorseful, and regret is all i feel, but looking back at the past won't do me any good, Shan Miao told me not to think about the past anymore, so i'll just wipe away the past, and absorb what is left, the lesson behind every sin.

im having some little problems that i can't really share it in here, but i'll be rest to assure that i would be ok and alright. after all, i had learned to look things at a different point of view, to look positively, and what is meant for me, would come one day, as long as i put all my effort in it, and i certainly believe that God put me in this world for a purpose, and the same goes to everybody. we all have something to contribute to this world.

my mum always tells me,

"must always have confidence, think positively, you believe you can do it, set a target, then you can do it."

yeah, i lack of confidence, but i think the seed of confidence is growing inside me, i hope that i would really manage to achieve what i desire in the future, although it's hard, but i would try my very best. all i need is motivation and encouragement from myself, and might as well, from everybody. =)

"I'm going home, Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from. No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home. Well I'm going home."
- Chris Daughtry's Home -

email

i received this really funny email, well, i find it funny though, from someone i do not know, it goes like this......

Subject : Greetings from another Lee Wern

Hi,

I came across your blog after searching my name for Google. There is really not much point in this e-mail other than it's nice to see somebody who shares (almost) the same name as me. I thought Lee Wern is an uncommon name and when I tell Chinese people it sounds totally foreign to them. I dunno. I simply go by "Lee" now because it's more English sounding and sounds better to me anyway. I live in Toronto, Canada.

Lee

erm, how am i supposed to react to this? haha. but it was really nice of this person to take his/her little time to email me, just to tell me that we share almost the same name. XD

cinema

i totally forgot to mention about what happened in front of the TGV cinemas at Sunway Pyramid when a bunch of us went to watch the movie Harry Potter and the Order of The Phoenix. as me, Yee Hong, and my brother got there early to buy the tickets, around 10.00a.m., the ticket counter however was not open, but there were lotsa people standing outside already. i think this was like the first time we saw so many people waiting outside the cinema, as all the other times we went, there were mostly 4 - 5 people at the cinema buying tickets that early in the morning. i have, however, decided to illustrate the scene using MS Paint, haha, sorry for the ugly drawing eh. XD


the 1st picture: there were like quite alot of people standing outside the cinema, but as you can see, the cinema's "door" is still 3/4 closed.


the 2nd picture: later on, one of the staff came to open the "door", and then everybody, yes everybody, comprising mostly of adults, rushed through the HALFWAY opened "door", without taking care of their image and stuff, crouched under the "door" and went into the cinema counter. lol. me and yee hong was like stunned. XD anyway, my brother went in quickly too, to get a place to buy the tickets, haha, thanks bro! if not we would not get to watch the movie after all, seeing the cinema teeming with people.


the 3rd picture: within a few seconds, the outside of the cinema was somehow empty, and well, me and yee hong quickly went to the ticket counter to find my brother. luckily, there was no stampede or something, if not the scene would turn out quite barbaric. haha. should have recorded it. =P

did this post simply because i have nothing else to do. XD

btw, cheer up Shan Miao =) and Ei-Jean, i don't know whether you would have the time to visit my blog, but then, please believe in yourself, you're way better than you think, good luck. =) it's quite sad that both my "bestest" friends in the world are staying quite far away from me, one in Tar College, one in UEM, but both of them would always remain as my best friend forever. =)

NOTICE

i'll update real soon =P

*edited*
updated, look below. hope the post won't bore you. XD

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

SPOILERS AHEAD, DON'T READ, IF YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW!! *unless you have read*

Hitherto, the series of Harry Potter books really captivated my heart, and i finally had a great read of the last and seventh book -- Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, where i had understood the usage of the word Hallow* as the title of the book. It was truly spellbinding, and all the secrets and mysteries from the past books flowed out nicely and fittingly, a twisted plot it was, but it was all worth it. the book was amazing and fantastic, some might find it boring, as i had thought for a spur of a moment as i read the book, there were admittedly some slow pacing and getting annoyed with the characters' frustration (mostly revolving Harry, Hermione and Ron), but after all, i couldn't spare to miss out every detail in the book, afraid that i might be lost amidst the exciting plot. the books were like a labyrinth, turning, but guiding you slowly to reveal the truth, the truth that might made others gasp, surprised, unexpected, unpredictable, predictable, or even disappointed. personally, however, i was simply amazed by the brilliant plot, well, the story was honestly good, not just good, but great.

* Hallow
- to make holy
- sacred

However, i was shocked upon Snape's death, because i did not think that he would die in such a bloody way, as Voldemort commanded Nagini the snake to penetrate its fangs into Snape's neck, and blood started gushing out copiously out his neck, i didn't expect that Voldemort would had killed Snape. sad it was, as Snape was like the bravest man in this book, risking his life, loyal and faithful to Dumbledore, as Snape's intentions was to always protect Lily, Harry's mother, eventhough he failed, but promised Dumbledore that he would also protect Harry, simply because he loved Lily.


and indeed, actually in my opinion, the books are conveying the message of
1. love
2. friendship
3. wonderful and warm relationships
4. mainly revolving on love
5. loyalty
6. faith
7. believing in oneself
8. never waver against evil
as the greatest power is love, and that Voldemort would had never ever understand, and that was why he was finally defeated.

i did not expect many people to perish too, but sacrificing, dying a hero's death, could not be avoided as it was part of what would happen in a war. and here, because i simply have nothing to do, i decided to state who died in this particular book.

1. Charity Burbage, Muggles Studies teacher at Hogwarts
2. Hedwig, Harry's owl
3. Mad-Eye Moody
4. Bathilda Bagshot
5. Ted Tonks
6. Dirk Cresswell
7. Gornuk, the goblin from Gringrotts
8. Muggles
9. Gellert Grindelwald, the dark wizard that was once Dumbledore's best friend
10. Gregorovitch, the Bulgarian wandmaker
11. Dobby, the free elf
12. Fred Weasley
13. Nymphadora Tonks
14. Remus J. Lupin
15. Colin Creevey
16. Severus Snape
17. Rufus Scrimgeour, Minister Of Magic

THE BADDIES THAT DIED
1. Voldemort
2. Bellatrix Lestrange
3. Crabbe, Draco's friend
4. Dolohov, Death Eater
5. Nagini, Voldemort's snake

not sure whether i missed out anybody who died. and i wonder why my language has gotten so serious writing about the book. lol. anyway, my interest was aroused by the Deathly Hallows, mainly The Elder Wand, that could allow the master of the wand to win every duel without failing; The Resurrection Stone, calling back the dead; The Invisibility Cloak, allowing a person to be invisible. Having all these 3 would make one invincible. well, honestly, the invisibility cloak would be quite useful, can't imagine calling back the dead, lol.

conclusion, the whole story was deathly amazing and wonderful. XD

any thoughts about the book would be gladly welcomed, free to comment. =)

fun =)

had a really great time with Shan Miao, Yee Hong, Ee Lyz, Shern Peng, Hui Yin, Alagammai and my brother at Sunway Pyramid last Saturday. we got to watch Harry Potter together, and it was fun to gather again. =) *hugs and kisses* for everyone. =) will miss ya guys.

the 5 powerpuff girls, don't mess with them =P

im coming to get ya!! don't run away!!

har? dancing ah? =P

surprised! smile =)

ee lyz and yee hong having a go at the trollies

yee hong and ee lyz

are they fighting for the trolley? =P

*bwahhahhah* i (ee lyz) won !! you lose shan miao. =P

what/who are you smiling at shan miao? hui yin stunned? =P

wah, yee hong is one lucky guy man *ahem ahem* =P

me and yee hong

my brother and yee hong

me and yee hong again =)

me and shan miao

unnoticed *kachhak*

sugar, spice and everything nice =P

wee!! =P

what are you fiddling at mai?

P.S. i suck in pictures, lol. and im not in some of the pictures cause i went back home early. lol. and im still having flu, blah. roar!! XD