HAPPY BIRTHDAY Adeline!!! =)

may all your wishes in your wish list come true. heehee. =) enjoy everyday of your life.

everything in one

sobbing out loud "nobody is visiting my blog anymore!!" *sobs sobs*

i know. everybody is busy huh. or is the power of "don't feel like blogging anymore" that made everybody to stop visiting my blog anymore? *sighing out loud*

i am so addicted to Ghost Whisperer right now i can't wait to get the DVD when college reopens. which means buying the DVDs for season 1 and season 2 would burn two holes in my wallet *sizzle sizzle*. it's worth it anyway. Does anybody know where could i get cheap pirated DVD for English TV series? *wonder wonder*

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Oh Yes i got A for Mathematics!
Oh Yes i got A for Chemistry!
Oh No this is the FIRST time ever i got B for Biology!
Oh No i don't want to talk about Thinking Skills!

im feeling so guilty over getting a B for Biology. i did study. i did. and i promised myself that i would not slack. but it all went wrong during exam. how can i be so stupid. always had this high confidence in Biology suddenly it just pulled me down. ARGH! this completely sucks. now i must work 2 times harder for every subject and score very good A's.

and my lecturer somemore commented "a very able student with great potential", made me feel very very guilty. did she actually gave the wrong comment or what huh. sigh. i just let myself down and whoever that had high hopes on me. sigh.

nevermind. i told my parents today that i would definitely get an A for Biology and it will be a good A. I WILL. I WILL.

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"One of the main reasons why you get moody and discouraged and have low self-esteem is that you are constantly comparing yourself with others. THIS IS A BIG MISTAKE. The most IMPORTANT thing is to get into competition with yourself."

this is what all the hypocrites and kiasus can't understand. especially those kiasus that just seep into their personality and make them unlikable. blah.

"Don't compare yourself with anyone else. Measure yourself on what you have done, what you are doing and what you can do. You are in a race with yourself and your own possibilities."

so don't get upset over others. be yourself and feel yourself. feel good. =)

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i am very sure that all Malaysians do feel the rage upon what happened to Nurin Jazlin, the poor little girl who got kidnapped, tortured, sexual abused and killed. the stupid farker who did this terrible thing must be *in my opinion* KILLED. this bugger had no no no NO moral conscience at all. tidak berhati perut. tidak berperikemanusiaan. acted like an animal, even worse than an animal. indeed, that whoever must be a maniac. blah. the police better capture that whoever quick before somebody gets hurt again.

"what is the world turning into? sigh..."

yesterday night...

.something stupid and horrible happened.

as i was using my right hand to brush my teeth with the toothbrush, i held out my left hand to grab the toilet roll which was situated at the small top attached to the toilet bowl. *god knows why did i grab the toilet roll.* and i was secretly thinking 'please don't drop inside the toilet bowl'. but actually i did not manage to grab the toilet roll, but accidentally pushed *a slight soft push okay* the toilet roll and it FELL into the toilet bowl.

"'PLOOP', toilet roll fell into the toilet bowl"

and it was 45 degree submerged inside the water inside the toilet bowl. luckily nobody did some small or big business in it and it was just PURE water. *phew* and i had to take it out again and left the toilet roll to dry. it's still abit wet and spongy and puffy in the afternoon. LOL.

bad drawing but im sure you guys could figure it out huh. LOL.

see. holidays is so boring till im talking about what happened while i was brushing my teeth. -_-"

running screaming swearing

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Thinking Skills - has some ability in this subject but needs to work harder.
Mathematics - wrote a good exam.
Chemistry - good work.
Biology - a very able student with great potential.

my thoughts - im such a useless slacker.

P.S. would be back for my rantings soon. haha.

i have to agree with Sara and Adeline. kinda losing the urge and feel to blog already. sigh. maybe simply because there's nothing inspiring that can infiltrate my mind now.

that's all. goodbye for now. LOL.

100th post

.This is my hundredth 100th post.

here are some silly and free pictures for you guys to boo or smile at. haha. XD

=) you might just smile in between =)

that is not my pair of legs =P

HAVE A NICE DAY!

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HAHA! lucky her =P

"Everyday, of our lives,
wanna find you there,
wanna hold on tight.
Gonna run,
while we're young,
and keep the faith."
- Everyday - Zac Efron n Vanessa Hudgens - High School Musical 2 OST -

stuff like this and that

i've been putting away my personal problems from this blog for quite some time and i wonder why while im supposed to express all my bloody mixed-up feelings in this blog to lighten a part of me everyday. sigh.

*please wait a moment while i fry an egg*

1. time to think about what am i going to study later on in university for my future.
2. which university to apply for.
3. worry about my AS trial results.
4. worry about my upcoming real AS examination.
5. worry about my friendship with my best friend.
6. looking forward to have an "educational vacation" during the holidays.

i fought and argued with my best friend during my trial examination. mainly my mind was focusing for the exams and the problem did not really exist in my brain, which you guys might think me cruel, but the exams was my first priority. and now she's having exams and she probably won't be bothered by it too.

literally i think her problem is not contributing at all to this friendship. all the while i was the one trying to keep in touch with her, while she would not bother to reply my sms all the time. it just makes me wonder how much she really wants to keep this friendship. she can't come online i understand but smsing?? she told me she was too lazy and it was boring. wth. she even told me off to find another new best friend, obviously her motive was so that i would not bother and miss her so much. SERIOUSLY, i was VERY PISSED by her words. how could she even teach me to find a new best friend.

i feel like swearing now. all my emotions are boiling again. im not a person who would easily open my heart to others and blab all my problems and show my true colours to other people. and i know how innocent she is to always believe and get influenced by others so easily that she would get conned and taken advantage of, she might not even speak out about it. well, for god's sake, im NOT like that. and she's living in a place so messy and so kelam kabut, she might just become a person i do not recognize. sometimes i just worry for her that she would not be the angel that she used to be. and maybe she even became quite self-conscious. gosh. i don't know.

maybe it is my problem? maybe i've been expecting too much? but all the while i've been trying so hard to compromise and believe me, patience and tolerance is sometimes really not one of my virtues. and all she do is complain and whine there. im really fed up with her. i seriously feel like giving up already. but deep inside my heart, i do not want to lose her as my best friend.

the resolving power

FOR this 2-week holiday, i would seriously do some self-reflecting and improve on my diligence and conscientiousness.

YOU, L W C, cannot afford to be lazy anymore ohkay. your biggest and humongous enemy is LAZINESS and you need to change it quick before you become a heap of crap. which i don't think you would desire to. hmph. bleuk.

therefore my holiday resolution is to

CHARGE at Biology - Chemistry - Mathematics and Thinking Skills.

and reCHARGE again at Biology - Chemistry - Mathematics and Thinking Skills till my real AS examination creeps up which would be starting at October the 17th or maybe even as early as October the 9th for my practical exams.

one word - !!KAMBATEH!!

of course for all my friends out there studying too, whether no exam or got exam, we SAMA-SAMA berusaha -lah. hehe. =)

disaster trials

:: my trials are over :: !!YES!!

as usual. i can't live without .ranting. .complaining. .feeling remorse. regretfulness. of my exam papers. so, here it goes peeps. *sigh*

let me start with

.Mathematics.

Paper 1
i kinda thought that this paper was tough. it's like Add Maths SPM. blearghhh. even harder. and the damn paper was in the afternoon, after my depressing Biology exam. my head was kinda spinning here and there. information running here and there but little neurons attached and lighted. LOL. but i still can scrap through -lah, i hope. LOL.

Paper 6
Paper 6 is Statistics. yeah. normal, binomial distribution, probability. but this paper was da BomB. hehe. it was very manageable. and surprisingly with my low IQ, i could do all the questions, except that 2 marks questions. =.=". LOL.

please let me get an A in Maths. please.

.Chemistry.

Paper 1
woah, this paper was damn freaking hard, exactly same standard as Cambridge past year papers. obviously because most of the questions came from there, the lecturers just cut, copy and paste. LOL. and luckily the day before, i did all the multiple choice questions past year papers. so it really saved me. yeah. hehe. =P

Paper 2
surprisingly i thought this paper was moderate, at the borderline of easy and moderate. could do all the questions except 1 or 2. LOL. confidence was just at that ngam ngam level which i never had before for Chemistry. lol.

Paper 3
Paper 3 is practical exam. yes, hands-on experiment. it was overall okay. but kinda screwed up the calculating part. wth. lol.

i hope to get an A for Chemistry.

.Biology.

Paper 1
got the high level confidence to score full marks for this paper. *wink wink* but nah, it won't happen. -_-"

Paper 2
i totally screwed this paper. i don't know what the hell was going through in my head, my high level confidence for Biology suddenly dropped to zero level, maybe even going to negative. .OMGWAD I HATE MYSELF. looking at the questions, my brain just stopped dead and no information was coming through my mind. to seriously think back the paper, it was okay and maybe even easy for me. but damn it. something terribly wrong happened to my brain. shucks. i feel so down down down. but i can't do anything now. just feeling remorse and rebellious.

Paper 3
this paper was another disaster. the experiment part was totally not what i expected. lost 9 marks!!! blah. the rest of the paper was ok.


no hope in getting an A in Biology. i failed myself. =(

.Thinking Skills.

one word .screwed.

Paper 1
problem solving questions was ok. but critical thinking skills was disastrous.

Paper 2
no need to say. i have drilled out my brain. shucks.


please i don't want to fail. blah.

Conclusion is : i am stupid. =(