i am 1 year older today. i am legally an adult. XD
and to all my friends, thanks for the wishes, and here i wish you guys all the best in everything you do. and be happy always! XD
good luck for the YED sara and adeline! XD

*edited*
i came!!~~

and yee hong was so sweet, he bought me 2 cakes today, it's so pretty, im reluctant to gobble it up. XD




im feeling as happy as ever. XD

people say college is like a totally free year, but NO!

PAST
10 - 14 subjects during SPM - it's disastrous enough

NOW
even though you're only taking 4 - 5 subjects, it's just as killing as SPM, or maybe even more killing. for a total 6 months digesting all the subjects and topics, you would have to vomit out everything, EVERY SINGLE THING, during the semester exam (June). you would approximately have 11 topics per subject to study, that is like a whole year of form 5!!~~ bleargh, and it's even in more detail than form 5, so well, people, college is so totally not a happy honeymoon year, you would have to cram your grey matter with loads of stuff in like 1 year or 1 and a half years. and it seems like you don't have enough time for everything, assignments, projects (oh, stupid moral project, 2 summore, how to survive, we have our exams coming teacher!), study, tests, quizzes here and there. *sobs sobs*

anyway, college is actually fun minus all the workload that falls on you. =) XD

i have to admit that i love chemistry, that was like ---> until form 5 and now i kinda beh tahan chemistry, have to study different types of chemistry, organic -lah, inorganic - lah, physical - lah, damn, boring boring boring. and i have to get started on it now.

another confession is i don't like biology, that was like ---> until form 5, cause it was boring and boring, and it was so hard (exams) ewwww!!~ and now i love biology, i don't know why, i can't explain why, and please don't come telling in my face why i like biology.

spot the mistake

can you spot that there's something so wrong in the picture? gwad. XD

she *sparkled*

oh YES!!~~ Jordin Sparks won American Idol season 6, YAY, she has one awesome voice. XD


i missed the result show in the morning at 8 am, so well, i finally got to watch it at 6 pm, woohhh, i think that this is like the hottest american idol result show ever, featuring superstars, and 4 American Idol winners -- Kelly Clarkson, Ruben Studdurd, Carrie Underwood and Taylor Hicks. man, was i entertained, awesome!!~~ *bwaahahahah* and this might sound ridiculous, cause i actually downloaded Kelly's performance in AI today at school, eheheheh. -_-" she totally rocked man!!~~ wooohh.
omgwad, and i totally loved the Sergant Pepper song, she was so cute, jumping, and gwad, her voice amazing...*mesmerised*



and the weather is still bloody hot, damn.
and i have to add that Kelly Clarkson is still the best American Idol ever. XD

Simon: "The best by a mile is Kelly Clarkson. We got so lucky with Kelly Clarkson season one because she's not just a great American Idol winner, she's up there now with some of the greatest singers in the world... I mean I think she's as good as someone like Celine Dion. I think she really is that good."

i want to cut my hair short, like straight and jagged hair, not girl short, but short, so that i could gel my hair, XD. but i don't think it suits me, but i wanna cut!!~~ i don't want to get stuck in the same hairstyle for the rest of my life, this sux, why do i have such little hair and a big forehead, issshh. i wanna cut my hair, i wana cut, i wana cut. *sobs sobs* please comment, i can accept it. aihh.

im not hiding, no, im not running, no,
if you dig a little deeper you will find me...
-james morrison-undiscovered

life's been a little too boring lately, maybe exam is coming, and everybody is giving us exercises, teaching, exercises, teaching, gosh, give me something new baby. i wish i could participate in the Star's Youth programme though, visiting the Perak limestone hills, that would be interesting, but it falls from June 1 to June 5, ish. *waste waste*

"aiyoh, so late already ah, okok, faster faster finish this" -- chem teacher
then she quickly went to the whiteboard and wrote down the answer, quickly and hurriedly explained to us, and you know what, while we were still copying, she *whoooossshhh*, left the classroom, *bang* the sound of the door, and she was gone, and everybody laughed like mad. ever wonder why is she always in such a rush, our chem period mainly falls on 2 p.m. which ends at 3 p.m. so she's always in a rush to go HOME. -_-" interesting teacher, she leaves faster than the students, well, i have interesting teachers anyway, fun fun fun. XD

this is a story told by my friend, related from our friend *sounds complicated*
my friend saw our chem teacher hastily walking out of the school, and she saw long beans wrapped in a newspaper in her bag.

"teacher, you going back home to cook eh?" my friend said
"yala, my long beans want to die already, must faster get back" replied teacher

omgwad, i burst into laughter upon hearing this, it's just damn beh tahan, she's so funny. XD

"last time i was very active in sports wan, i played hockey..." -- bio teacher
"SURE -boh?" said a guy in our class
i think she ignored that. but our class didn't, we laughed...
-_-"

i believe that we would be strong, you and you and you would be tough and strong to face the obstacles descending in front of us, please believe in yourself, and pray -- miracles happen, but what will come, will come...
please pray

im not lost

i haven't and won't be blogging for these few days, or weeks, but please don't be alarmed, because im still around, just lost between the pile of books and papers containing Biology, Chemistry and Maths. Thinking Skills is way to vague and complicated for me to handle. *tssk tssk* *think think* *read read*

im not lost, im not lost, just undiscovered,
and when we're alone, we're all the same, as each other,
you see the look that's on my face,
you might think that im out of place,
im not lost, no, no, just undiscoverd.
- james morrison - undiscovered -

im not lost, just waiting to be discovered. XD

please pray
just pray
for everybody in the world
for unfortunate ones
for unlucky ones
for those suffering
for those in misery
for those in poverty
for those in depression
for those with diseases
for those living in war affected countries
for those homes destroyed by natural disasters
pray that they would eventually see light one day
free themselves
pray too
for yourself
for your family
for your relatives
for your friends
for your teachers
and here i pray
for a speedy recovery for my grandma's hand (dad's side)
for my grandma (mum's side)
for my uncle
for my aunt
and for my parents
for my brother
for my cousins
for my aunts and uncles
for my friends
and for myself
that they would always be healthy
they would always be safe and sound
and live in happiness everyday

happy mother's day!

owwh,

going to be super busy this month preparing for my semester exams that are commencing from July 11 to July 15, but actually, im only having a 3-days exam, phew. *wipes sweat*
but still, there's so many
to READ for BIO
to PRACTICE for CHEM
to UNDERSTAND and PRACTICE MATHS
to FULLY MASTER SKILLS for THINKING SKILLS
ooh, and how i love bio so much, i love bio, i love chem...control control.
only 4 subjects but it's breathing down my neck, blowing fire to me, cause there's just so many to study...
must
TERMINATE,
DESTROY,
KILL,
laziness. XD

some dunno how many days before...

"wern ching has to continue to work hard to maintain her results."

this was what my bio teacher commented/quoted on a paper that contains our tests and quizzes results, and she asked us to comment on our own results.

so, i wrote in reply,

"im not really satisfied with my current results yet, cause i could do even better than that."

i wanted to write that...

nah, i did not write that, i DID NOT write that, see how i emphasize on the DID NOT,

"i would continue to work hard to reach my target."

is what i actually wrote. XD

gwad, i put such high expectations on myself. did she really put "good" there, i can't really remember, i have to boost my memory, but i think she did. XD

" the world keeps spinning,
people going on moving,
they keep screaming,
time is running! "

btw, congrats to Germae and Aliah for getting the JPA scholarship!!~~ woohh, all the best to both of you there. XD

Saturday 05/05/2007

today was my former Alma Mater's Hari Kecemerlangan, it is to erm, appreciate and recognize the students' hard work, blood, and sweat put into their studies academically and non-academically (co-curriculum activities), and getting flying colours for it, yes, or erm, something lidat, whatever -lah. XD

honestly, i was reluctant to go back to school, blah, i don't know why i have this kind of feeling, but then it just comes spilling out, to me, it's kinda awkward going back to high school. XD i had butterflies in my stomach, ok, i know, this is stupid, im such a dork. XD anyway, i had to wait for the SPM 2006 top student --> shan miao to arrive, i told her this,

"eh, when you reach usj 2 lidat, you only sms me."
"halfway liao, u faster come oh, later need to wait for you leh, takkan ask my family wait for you meh, paiseh." she replied.

and you know what? i arrived faster than her, then i called her,
"woi, where are you? im already at school and you're nowhere to be seen, where are you?"
and she said, "im at the smk seafield there."
i was like, "what the, then you so fast sms me to come for what, i told you, you reach usj2 only sms me mah." -_-"
aih, blur shan miao. -_-" *cute*

*ok, i kinda forgotten what are the details that happened* XD

passing through PBSM's room, i heard my name, *and all hell broke loose, okok, just kidding* XD
"雯晶!" omgwad, it's my chinese teacher, bleargh, help me!!!~~ ok seriously, i think she look older liao, shan miao said it's her hair that's why, ok well, maybe. -_-" *but from last year, she had that hair -leh*
"hi, teacher!" i replied.
and then, and then, she started taking my hands -_-", *like, you guys can imagine right* seriously, i was kinda completely stunned and terrified,
"how are you?" *actually it's in mandarin*
"im, erm, ok..." i said.
then phew, shan miao came, and kinda saved me from the awkwardness i was having inside, and teacher said,
"善苗!" *she still hasn't really let go of my hands yet*
"hi, teacher!" shan miao said. XD
"so, what you guys doing now?" teacher asked.
"oh, im doing a levels at taylors." =) i said.
"im planning to go tar college to do diploma in accounts." shan miao replied.
and then the question that i so don't wanna hear just popped out...
"so, how about you and tcp?" teacher asked.
*oh, bloody shit, aihhh* i was thinking.
"together?" she asked again.
"erm, nolah, nolah, don't have, nope, no." i said.
"don't have already?" she said.
oh dear, stop it -lah. looking at shan miao with pitiful eyes, help me!!~~
"no no no. errhhh..." i answered.
"really happy to see you guys" =) teacher said.
me and shan miao just smiled. XD

we saw sook peng and jenn mun, so we went there, when sook peng said,
"hoho, what did you do to your hair har?"
"ahahahahah" i just laughed.
"ahahahaha, just kidding ler." she said. XD
had a little nice chat with them. XD
then irene came, with her bf, may i know what race is he, irene? XD *ahahaha*

once again, my mandarin teacher came and chatted with jenn mun and irene, so well, suddenly, irene just said,
"老师，你看, 雯晶染头发!" (teacher, see, wc dyed her hair)
oh dear. -_-".
"不用紧啦，雯晶长大了吗，我很开放的" (nevermind, she's grown up already, i very open -wan) teacher said.
-_-" is all i could express...

it was actually quite fun going back to school, and me and shan miao had a little chat with sara, wye loon, danish, shern peng, yuet kwan, hui yin. remembering the days we went through, for like 5 years, gwad, it's that long eh, hope we could continue this friendship for as long as possible. XD

and ooh, i didn't know that the school would grant us money, 1 A for RM10, cool, and my wallet is filled with RM110 now. *bwahaahah* must control must control XD.

oh, the good old days

Kelly Clarkson :: Never Again

Kelly Clarkson's new music video :: Never Again

*bloody chunted mv* *bwahahahhah* *wicked coool*

Rascal Flatts :: My Wish

Artist: Rascal Flatts
Song: My Wish
Album: Me And My Gang

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you wanna go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,

and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more than you take.
But More than anything, yeah, more than anything.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish. Yeah.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

this bothered - bothers me

"................................................................."
"after all, there were still babies."
"babies can't talk. they can hardly move. a baby is not a rational, thinking creature."
"we made babies. and we used them."
"some of them we ate. baby flesh is tender and succulent."
"we flayed their skin and decorated ourselves in it. baby leather is soft and comfortable."
"some of them we tested. we taped open their eyes, dripped detergents and shampoos in, a drop at a time."
"we scarred them and scalded them. we burnt them. we clamped them and planted electrodes into their brains. we grafted, and we froze, and we irradiated."
"the babies breathed our smoke, and the babies' veins flowed with our medicines and drugs, until they stopped breathing or until their blood ceased to flow."
"............................................................."
"only...yesterday, all the babies were gone."

i decided to share with you guys a short story from a book called "Smoke and Mirrors" by Neil Gaiman, the above is actually an excerpt, im not supposed to write the whole story down right? XD. so, i tell you what i left out. it starts with,
"all the animals were gone, disappeared, and the humans didn't know what to do without the animals, and then they decided to use babies as a substitute for animals. until one day, the babies were all gone too, and the humans didn't know where they went, and they don't know what are they going to do without them, and they thought that they're think of something to overcome it."

"humans are smart. it's what makes us superior to the animals and the babies. we'll figure something out." this is the last sentence...

the story is gross and it kinda bothered me, and i kept thinking about it. wonder what you guys think? using babies? eating them? gwad, it makes me sick. but anyway, there's a moral story behind this story (in my opinion XD) that we should always appreciate the living things or things around us and everyone around you, and do not take them for granted. =)

talking about this book, it contains dark and mysterious stories, and even censored stuffs inside it, so well, yeah, be prepared if you wanna check this book out, believe me, i wasn't prepared. XD

and gwad kelly rockx my world, unbelievable *bwahahahaah*

currently tuned to My Wish by Rascal Flatts