i think i have finally made up my mind. i won't bother about the 'thing' anymore. i don't think my heart is that great when i am just giving and there ain't a receiving end from the other party. sure, i would love to give more, it wouldn't hurt, would it? but sometimes when there are no feedback at all, i just feel lonely and pathetic. what in my right mind would i want to be in pain for? just for that stupid 'thing' ? it makes me feel worse thinking about it. terrible, deep down inside, an aching pain.

i know there ain't gonna be an ending. but my heart says, "go for it! it will happen one day if it is still there." but what if there isn't anything anymore, it will mean i am just a fool. i don't like to be rejected, simply because i feel like a loser. or i can't stand the feeling of being hurt again. i guess i'll have to close up my heart really tight from now on, to protect myself. i am not a rag doll. i am not someone who you can fool around for a while, and in a second, you leave me all alone. what does that even mean?

as i write this, my heart turns sour.

but i know, i will get rid of it.

time is all i need.

i will pick all my weeds and leave the flowers.

semester 2 timetable

I've just looked through my semester 2 timetable, and i'm abit freaked out. i don't understand at all. It looks more packed and dense than semester 1. i know it should be. New things that thwarts my inner soul. *scary* 12 weeks of semester 2 is short. *gulps*

There are:
(a) PBLs every single week, the first trigger starting with sore throat.
(b) Clinical skills session. we would start learning how to examine patients.
(c) More lab practicals.
(d) Microbiology! bacteria, virus, fungi stuff.
(e) Hospital postings!

the stupid problem is PBL. i hate it. and it's on the first day of school! i guess i have to start stepping out of my comfort zone and open my mouth more to speak. but it seems impossible, unbearable really, to speak more, like my mother always said, "got gold izit your mouth?" i don't think i'm knowledgeable compared to my peers. their passion is even more fiery than me! i think i would have to find out more about sore throat later. =/

i have to really start revising on my foundation 1 as well. start serious revising. if not i think i'll just die at the end of the year. i think i'm supposed to remember how a virus looks like for Microbiology. gwad. imagine that.

anyway, i think i had a rejuvenating holiday. which is coming to an end, sadly. holidays are never good for me, i feel SO restless! contradicting myself, it seems. off to a new start next semester!

=D

oh, i can't wait for UP and Julie and Julia. HAHA!

Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince

Finally i watched Harry Potter, the 6th movie today. There were so many people, as usual.

The movie was alright.

There's nothing much to do because this book is all about describing Voldemort's past, retrieving Professor Slughorn's memory, the journey through the cave to find the Horcrux, and of course Professor Dumbledore's death. which is a really sad one.

but i can't help but liking those cheesy, love struggle moments because it's just too funny. and relatable. LOL!

and i love Emma Watson. and Evanna Lynch who plays Luna Lovegood. HAHA!

makes me wanna read the whole book again. =D

now, i feel like watching Johnny Depp's Public Enemies.

i seriously can't wait for Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince movie next week! it seems they finally made it right this time! ooh! >.< i hope i get to watch it with

anyway. im literally rusting at home. mushrooms are growing all over me. it's ridiculous. i have to start studying already. i wonder when are the new batch of Medicine people coming in. ooh! orientation! if everything goes well, i hope i'll get to be an orientation officer a.k.a OO. hehe! freshmen are like fresh meat! =D

aha! got to go pay my fees.

good night peeps!

"oh love, don't let me go. won't you take me where the street lights glow." - Life In Technicolor II - Coldplay.

ah. how i love the instrumental part for this song. it makes me shake my head in ecstasy.

anyway. holidays are boring. let's see. went out with my good friend Wei Yee to watch Transformers. and now she's already in Brisbane. all the best and take care my friend! did my community-orientated project last Saturday. *i seriously don't know how to handle kids* went for something that would not lead to something at all. *shakes head sadly* took my brother to watch Transformers again.

now i have this dizziness that won't go away. ughh.

Transformers : Revenge Of The Fallen

Transformers is da bomb man!


Such awesome CGI effects/graphics.

Awesome robots. again.

especially the fight scenes.

and i love Megan Fox.

nuff said.

Autobots. Roll out.